The Sixth Sense.

Tuesday, April 01, 2014 No Comments »

I've this bad feeling lately. Regardless of where he is, i still have this unwanted feelings. Whenever i'm thinking about him, there's an indescribable-feeling and my heart started to race. Sometimes, those bad feeling makes me miserable-sad and scared and i cried for no reason. Even right now, at this moment i'm typing this post i still don't understand why i'm having this feeling.

Mungkin ada sesuatu yang berlaku di luar kesedaran atau pengetahuan saya so i need an answers.

God, if there's something i have to know please show me the clues. Please show me something to find the answers.

p/s : i hope it wasn't you.

.Fragile Me.

Friday, March 28, 2014 No Comments »

I've been staying here in le fiance house since 16th March. It's unplanned trip since he bought me the flight ticket 1 week before departure. But at this moment i'm writing this post am alone at home. He left to work again after 1 week break.

Things happened. But one-sided feeling! Meaning, saya saja yang 'TERASA'. I just don't know why. I'm vulnerable and fragile and crying in silent. He said nothing that makes me sad. He's beyond perfect in my eyes, i mean how he treated me, how he act and behave to me in front of his housemates, how he reacted on me when i mengada-ngada (hahaha)..nothing wrongs with him but me. I sees myself so incompatible to him, the way i'm thinking, how i deal with surrounding, how i make myself physically appealing. I want him to proud of having me so i can proudly walk beside him. I want to impress him but yet i'm no way can do that. Sometimes, when he teasing me and i knew it was only a silly jokes but its still hurting me, deeply. I convince myself that he's JOKING but this heart of mine betrayed me. I smile, i laugh to him but then i'm crying after that and of course he didn't know. He randomly praising a girl passing by, serious-face-advising me about my stubborn-fat belly (hehehe..), it's saddening me. I know he's telling me for my own good but....*sigh*

I just don't know WHY..

BIG 3, Mint & Lace!

Monday, March 03, 2014 No Comments »

Howdy visitors!

I'm hitting big 3 this year, this month! Tiada rasa apa-apa yang istimewa sebenarnya cuma sedikit confused. Dewasakah saya? Matangkah saya? How can we define someone as an adult? or mature? Hmmm..a friend telling me how scared she is to face the reality that she will be 30 soon. Bukan sebab angka itu tetapi memikirkan dirinya itu suda matang atau tidak. Saya sangat setuju bila dia mengatakan dia masih bersikap kebudak-budakan atau lebih tepat lagi tidak matang. Because i feel the same too. Orang Sabah cakap : macam budak-budak saja itu perangai :D

But, my guy best friend tells me that it's not because we're not matured enough. It's because i'm a person who is happy go lucky. Katanya lagi seseorang yang suda berani membuat keputusan sendiri dan positif dalam menjalani kehidupan seharian itu suda dikatakan matang. Biarpun sikap dan gaya agak kebudak-budakan tetapi membuat keputusan cara dewasa, itu suda matang. Kita tidak akan menyedari yang kita ini sebenarnya sudah matang dan dewasa tetapi hanya akan dapat dilihat oleh orang-orang sekeliling tambahnya lagi. Mungkinkah? Bagi saya, asalkan saya tidak menyusahkan sesiapa, hidup secara baik-baik dan tidak memudaratkan diri sendiri, hormat orang sekeliling..itu sudah baik. I'm not going to stress myself whether i'm matured or not.

Still, i'm wishing this year will be a good year to me. More opportunities to improve my life, paying all my unpaid debts, forgiving & apologizing to makes me feel much better, no more hatred, no more dendam kesumat (haha) and be a GOOD wife! And oh! less than 9 month from now i'll be his wife.. ^_^

Okay, move on. These coming days sure is very tiring. With so much to plan and here and there to survey, it's more than enough to make me muntah darah! With the high price and expensive service that are needed, pasti memendekan lagi jangka hayatku. My goshhhh..everything is so pricey so i have to plan it well to survive and tidak menganggu kelancaran majlis itu nanti. Haduiiiiii.....*kalau laa aku kayaaaa*

*taken from Google*

Setelah sekian lama memilih warna tema (rambang mata) saya decide untuk pilih warna pastel dan telah di'approved' oleh sang tunang. It's mint green, peach, white & lace! :D I'm a big lace freak now.. I fall in love with everything in lace and i decided to DIY my wedding invitation cards, bridesmaids and MoH cards with lace-based..hehe.. I'll blog about it soon after finishing the sample...

Till then, bye!

lace, mint, wedding prep

2014 Comeback!

Thursday, January 16, 2014 No Comments »

Hi!

Lamanya tak blogging! And here i come, finally. After a few month (s), baru laa saya dapat blogging dengan selesa. I mean, a lot of times. I've organized few things here and changed my template too. I want it simple and clean this time.

It's 2014 and i'm getting married this year..hehe.. Date suda ada and confirmed! Harap-harap tiadala alar melintang. Saya sangat super excited! Sorry laa, macam show off pula tapi i can't help it. I'M HAPPY. Ex Bride & Bride To Be yang lain pasti memahami 'feeling' yang saya rasa sekarang ni. When your time comes, sure you will feel the excitement too.

Only 5% prep have been done. My checklist done, bought my wedding planner journal, surveying here and there. It's stressing by the way. Faham-faham laa..the price is sometimes unacceptable. Ada price yang reasonable tapi services kurang. Saya takut salah pilih pula..Kalau pilih price yang kurang sikit takut outcome nanti mengecewakan. Hmmm...10 bulan lagi..ada masa untuk servey apa yang patut. Mengharap yang baik-baik saja la kan? :)

Theme and color scheme belum decide lagi mau pilih apa. There's a lot of choice that i like tapi sekarang ni saya macam nak Vintage & Lace pula..haduiiiiii! Dah browse banyak web but i can't decide, yet. (Habibi, tulungin gue!) Huuuuuu~

Okay, enough with the wedding stuff. I'll update again here from time to time. And i think that's all for today. I have another things to do right now. Till next post, xoxx!

3 story In One!

Monday, May 13, 2013 No Comments »

Monday the 13th :) hehe..tiada kaitan so leave it..hello bloggers! Oh, am not so sure if there's still a readers here since i've been changed my url add..huhu..i just don't want to use the old url.

Well, the 13th GE pun suda berlalu. Tahniah la pada parti yang memerintah :( Even saya tak puas hati tapi siapalah saya untuk bercakap..'saya hanya semut kecil'.. Banyak benda yang mengelirukan dan keputusan sangat mencurigakan. Hanya Tuhan sajala yang tahu..Sebab ketidakpuasan rakyat, timbul pula racism issues. Memang bukan isu baru di Malaysia ni tapi sekarang sangat teruk. I just don't know how peoples think nowadays. Even the educated leader also sangat racis! Aiyaaaa..tak perlu la tunding jari menyalahkan orang lain padahal diri sendiri pun tak terurus. Sibuk nak penuhkan pocket masing-masing, sibuk nak kumpul harta kekayaan duniawi tetapi terlupa untuk berbuat amal untuk bekalan di akhirat nanti *geleng kepala*.

I started doing yoga today *clapping hands* Feel so fresh and ringan after sweating berbaldi-baldi..aisey!.hehe. I've downloaded the yoga video for beginner. Memang best..wait until i finish my 2 weeks program. Will upload some pictures of me :)) For those yang nak start yoga macam saya, you may download it from play store ( Daily Yoga ). Or maybe from youtube. Boleh juga refer buku yoga kalau nak tapi download video lagi baik so you can see how exactly they do it.

And, i have a new born nephew, again. The little boy was born on day the of 13th GE, 2:30am (05.05.2013).

Easton Sunsulit Mazagi is his name. They named it after a bird. Saya pun tak berapa pasti cerita di sebalik burung tu but i guess ada lagenda pasal burung tersebut. Maybe macam burung pheonix tapi versi rungus? hehehe..who knows kan? :D Nanti saya tanya mummy Easton laa..hehe..

Okay laa..I need to fix something so will stop here. Until next post, bye!

Ann was here :)

Tuesday, April 30, 2013 2 Comments »

Things happened. Everyday. Unexpected. Hectic weeks of course.

I updated my blog, again. I want it simple soo tadaa! :) I've so much to tell but i couldn't stand my eyes as it's 1:43am right now..

Nighty night everybody. Ciou~

So long March, Hello April

Tuesday, April 02, 2013 No Comments »

Everyone complained that they been fooled by friends. Well, yesterday is 1st of April which is everybody called April Fool. I'm not really into such thing as it's not giving me any benefits. I rather read my book than making myself looked like a silly person.

I miss my phone..hahaa..it's doesn't working for the past few days. It keep restarting before home screen. I thought it was the battery but still the same even after i replaced with the new one. I asked my friend whom had the same phone with me..she suggested that i should repair it..

I miss my penyu penyu. It's been a week after he left. He was in KK for 5days..tak puas pun spend time with him. And oh! He's a bit thinner than he was 3 month ago..hehe..We went to Tambunan, watched movies, karaoke, supper at our favorite place (Lido), Ice-cream, window shopping..hahaa...let's just say we're saving money that's why can't afford to shop anything. But, it's true. We've booked our pre-wed photography and paid 30% of the price. And, we're looking for pre-wed course but don't have any, yet. I think we should start planning for our big day from now as it's only 19 month left :D

For now, bye!

p/s i love you.

Friday, March 29, 2013 No Comments »

Dear Fiance,

No matter what i've done wrong,

No matter what i've mumbled,

No matter how rude i acted...

PLEASE

Don't give up on me.

I love you. Much.

Officially 1 year older..again!

Friday, March 15, 2013 No Comments »

" Birthday wishes from d people who care for u is just like God blessing u with a million dollar cheque. With these wishes one could live a long time. And i don't think of it as being another year older, i think of it as another year of having enjoyed a friend like u. Muchos gracias! ♥ "

No cakes, no candles, no gift and i'm alone on my birthday..sobsob! How i wish Mr Fiance were here..

But this really made my day. So sweet of him kan? :D Can't wait to meet him next friday..

Till next post, bye!

Do-It-Yourself mask

Thursday, March 14, 2013 No Comments »

Hey!

Di sebabkan jerawat yang rajin sangat timbul-timbul di muka ku yang mulus (mulus laa sangat!) ni maka sa merajinkan diri untuk buat mask sendiri. Actually, i'm out of my mask so sa buat sendiri laa. Jimat, tak perlu kos sampai puluh ringgit. Rasanya, hasil tetap sama..cuma kita kena keja sikit laa..eheee..

Mask ni senang ja buat, sambil makan pun boleh..hehe..Bahan-bahan pun yang paling senang kita dapat. Putih telur and tisu muka. Di sarankan guna tisu yang sedikit tebal sebab kalau guna yang nipis payah nak lekat. Some of you maybe pernah buat and maybe ada juga yang akan cakap 'Ooo..' sebab first time tengok..Dulu masa di Uni selalu buat ni dengan roomates. Rindu laa masa tuh.. T.T paling tak boleh lupa bila nak tunggu mask tu kering roomates pakat buat lawak.Hasilnya, muka jadi kedut-kedut sebab ketawa. Sangat dilarang ketawa yah, nanti kulit muka bekedut..serius! :D

Caranya..gunting / koyakkan tisu ikut size yang kamu suka sebanyak yang mungkin. Ambil putih telur, pukul sedikit dengan garpu ~~dan masukkan garam~~. Cuci muka sebelum proses menampal sebab kalau muka berminyak susah mo melekat..takut jadi telur dadar pula nanti..haha.. Putih telur tu sapu di muka menggunakan jari atau guna brush blush yang tak digunakan lagi. Tampalkan cebisan tisu pada spot yang disapu putih telur tadi. Disyorkan start dari hidung dulu. Dah siap tampal seluruh muka, biarkan sampai kering. Bila dah kering, bukalah mask tadi dan bilas wajah anda dengan air suam..Ok? :D

.....masa nak tampal tisu tu jangan terlalu nipis and jangan terlalu tebal pula..Kalau nipis sangat tak berapa nak nampak kesan dan kalau terlalu tebal lama nak kering sebab memang gatal muka tuh.

That's all for now..cannot tahan already. Soooooo itchyy!

Selamat Mencuba!

p/s : Happy Birthday to me..heeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Blog's name - help me!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013 No Comments »

Bonjour!

Seharian memerah otak cari nama blog. To be exact, i've tried bermacam-macam nama tapi semua pun hampehh! I appreciate if you guys can pick me an unique name or help me to choose what i've found. Not so grand laa that nama but still i like it :D Here's the option..

1. Wait, what?

2. Brush & Colors.

...i'm make-up'ing my life based on what has been destined.

3. Ann, the hidden storyteller.

4. What i saw, what i heard & what i believe. **currently in use**

You can comment or leave a note in chat box. Thank you.

p/s : next week barulah buat pilihan..weeee, hopefully adala yang sudi tolong..

Again, i am here!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013 No Comments »

hi hi :)

it's been a while right? my last post was on 25th Sept last year and now sa macam x tau berblog suda..hihi..i keep giving excuses kan? ( i know!!) padahal memang banyak masa mo update pun.. it's not that i don't wanna do blog anymore, it's just that i don't know how to gather all the stories and write. well, i am not someone with talent bah in writing and all..( excuses again! ;p)

Many things happened all this while and oh! not to forget to mention i have a new born nephew now..

Baby Aldried Jared Jackelevon
DOB : 12.12.2012

Happy 3 month old baby Jared..aunt loves you so damn much!..macam baru semalam dia lahir :)

And, also my ex finally got married. How come he got married before me?! hahaha..no laa..am just wishing him all the happiness he deserve. At first, memang sa sedikit terganggu bila sa dapat tahu. I don't know why but it's make me a bit nervous. Frankly speak, i didn't expect him to settle down that sooner. But when i saw their wedding pictures, i cried my heart out. Well, it's not that i want him to come back to me cuma sa kesal sebab i saw him smile happily. It should be me to show him off that i am better and can be happy without him. I don't have a grunge over him, i just wanna make him see me live happily with someone else..argggh! napa ba ni kan? hahaha..just ignore this part laa... ;p

I made a few changes with my blog..kinda like it. I just want it appeared more light and cheerful. I'm using the existing header as i'm lazy enough to do my create my own..someday i guess. Even though, i can't stand the girlish header..hahahhaa!

I think that's it for now..Till next post, bye!

Please, give me answers

Tuesday, September 25, 2012 No Comments »

Is LOVE a CHOICE or FATE?

#heartthrob :D

Monday, July 23, 2012 No Comments »

Everyday i miss him..what to do?

** sa bguling2 jatuh cinta..hehehe

#imissyou

Tuesday, July 17, 2012 No Comments »

Dear Mr Fiance,

I miss you baby :'( i really do and it's hurt me like hell when you are so far away from me..please come back soon. Until then, i will wait but don't make me wait too long. I love you.
With Love,
Baby Ann

p/s : dear readers, please don't vomit.hehe..

MUMBLING ;)

Tuesday, July 10, 2012 2 Comments »

Tomorrow is the day that i've to wake up early, go to office, back home late in the evening without a mid-day sleep..where i can't watch my favorite dramas, can't eat my favourite foods while Facebooking. That's what i call 'welcome to hell!'

Tomorrow is the day, i'm meeting with my ex-boss & colleagues. Doing office duty that makes me stress till pimple-out, dealing with peoples that depress me till i want to punch their face. That's what i call ' you should go to SPA!' ;)

Tomorrow is the day where I have to sacrifice my precious time as a young woman but in the end of month i collect my payment. That's what i call 'what a BLISS!' :)

**updates while sitting in a car waiting to depart to KK.

I'm GLAD.

Monday, July 09, 2012 No Comments »

I'm listening to a song and i remember him. No more regret only peace. I don't know why he keep crossing my mind these days but i realized that i'm not angry anymore.

I smile. All those memories makes me smile. I've learn my lesson, i've forgive. I'm GLAD he was a part of my life. Got hurts, frustrated, failure, argument..i've endure it all just to prove what was my feelings. Now, it was all gone just a memories to be remembered. I thanked God for the beautiful lessons, for the wonderful experience.

I smile. For me to fallen in love again. He gave me all the happiness i deserve. There's nothing can describe & compare what i'm feeling toward him. Only can say i'm GLAD.

annhearttales.blogspot.com :D whattheH!

Saturday, July 07, 2012 No Comments »

This is a quick update.

I miss 'merepek' in here. Damn the internet i can't login into my blog. I miss blogwalking..pretty sure got so much interesting post to read T.T
Next week i'll be working again, dealing with numbers everyday..Oh, thank you to my ex-boss for hiring me again..hehe..End of month got money to SHOPPING!*bliss*
Okey, see you next post. I probably updating my blog from my desk in office that time..hahaha *begaya*

Sent from my Sony Ericsson Xperia neo V

I love my best friend.

Friday, June 29, 2012 No Comments »

Accept you as who you are.

Believe in having fun.

Cherish time together

Dream big dreams.

Enrich, comfort and delight.

Follow up and follow through.

Grow for ever memories.

Honor each other’s feelings.

Invite you into there heart.

Just call to you “How are you?”

Know when something’s up.

Best friend ring

I maybe clueless and clumsy but i have friend who love me

Love you both dear ;D

When I cry you help me out

When I'm happy you hear me shout

When I grin you know I'm really mad

because you are my best friend

You can tell when I'm sad

You're there in thick and thin

You're my best friend

You hear me out when I want to talk

You help me out when I get mad

You are the bestest friend I've ever had

So hear me out when I say

You're the light in my day

You are the moon in my night

You shine very bright

You are the bestest friend I have

and I miss you

Marilyn made this for me last year :D

You see right through my pretenses

you look right through my mask

you know just when I need a hug

I never need to ask

You show up when I'm lonely

you stay when I'm depressed

all of my rude comments

you shrug away in jest

You see all my dark

you see all my light

you're always by my side

even when I'm not right

You cheer me when I'm sad

you catch me when I fall

How did you come to earn my trust,

when I trust no one else at all?

xoxo

p/s : Big HUG for everyone. Today is Hug Day. :D

What happened on June?

Thursday, June 28, 2012 No Comments »

Finally, baru boleh buka. Punya bikin panas nih line internet. Sangat² teruk dan hampir² buat sa terjun bangunan! Damn! =,=

And oh.. hi people! I've been away since 31st of May and haven't update anything here..hadoiiiii! rindu mau merepek di sini :D I was just come back from KK week ago and sa masi demam. Masih sakit kepala tahap mau banging di dinding T_T .Teda ubat yang mujarab setakat ini so sa bertahan seja laa..uhuuu..I will start from the day i left home :) This will definitely a long post but never mind. So much to tell and more pic to share.

31st May -

Around 1:00pm, we departed to KK. Singgah KB skejap di car wash. And while waiting the car siap mandi kami ber'konica' laa sekejap kasi hilang boring menunggu.

At night, inilah habuan..haha! A bit drunk that time tapi memang enjoy laa..duduk ramai² bercerita, ketawa macam apa saja..weeee... I only remember to snapped this ;)

That day was Mr Fiance's birthday, too. Sad! cuz i can't celebrate it with him since dia sangat jauh di tanah melayu :( I only managed to wish him via phone. Tapi tak mengapa. Sabar seja la kan? I have my whole life baa kan mau celebrate..Pray for his health, luck and wealth and happiness. May God bless & guide him everyday. I love you baby *hugs*

1st June

Sempat jalan² di Kokol. Planning mau pi Kasih Sayang Resort tapi hujan! I can't take a pictures sebab kabus sangat tebal. On our way back home, sempat singgah di Summit Prayer tapi tutup so kami tengok dari main road saja..Isn't this amazing? I love the building!