Happy Mommy's Day to all mom, mom-to-be, pending-mom (yang belum kawen..hehe) all over the world. May God bless everyone of you. Thank you for being a superwoman ;)

On a day like this, i really wish that my mom is still around. It's been 17th years since she left us T.T. I miss her so much and it's such a pains that i'm not remembering what she look liked anymore. Her last images in my eyes has been disappeared along with my tears on the day she's gone. The only picture of her that we have right now is her IC's photo but it's quite blurry.

Dear Mom,
I'm sorry that i end up forgetting your beautiful looks. You left us too soon that i didn't get the chances to engrave your angel's face in my heart. I wish that you come to me in my dreams and hug me tight and take all the pains of missing you for years. We grew up without you and dad really did your undone duty very well. Being our father and mother in the same times, it's sure does giving him a hard times but mom, i'm so proud of him. We love you mom and always will. We will pray for you and please look after us. We'll unite again as a family when our times come. Until then, please rest in peace. 

Oh, not to forget my step-mom. Even though we don't share the same blood and flash, you still are our mother. You rise us just like your own kids and we are truly blessed. You too left us too soon. And we didn't have the chances to repay you back. We will pray for you inaa'.. We all loves both of you, mother.

Soon, i'm going to get married and probably will be a mom too. I'll rise them just like what both of you've done. I'll tell my kids that they have an awesome grandma :D

Hello buddies :D

Okey, don't you think the title sounds like a suicide thing? Well, i once have had this kind of thought (when i was a kid ). When my mom scolded me and there's nobody i can turns to, since my brother also mad at me i talked to my mom like these..'biarlaa, sa p bunuh diri ni.sa p minum tu racun'...

Thinking back on this really embarrassed me. Why on earth i talked like that? Ever since i said that to my mom, she never scolded me anymore in her usual. She talked to me differently and she treated me more gentle. She was of course really afraid of what i maybe do to myself but the truth is i didn't have much guts to do as i've told her. It was such a childish and stupid way of getting her attention and stop scolding me that time. Right now, i tried to understand what was her feelings on the time. HURTS. I'm really sure about this. She maybe thinking of why such a little girl would say like that. I'm just 9 years old that time and i still don't know what life really is. It was my mistakes anyway but why i have to talk like that?!

I'm not that proud of what i've done to my mom and the regrets of hurting her that way remains forever. As i've grown up enough now and able to think what is right and wrong, that was the most regretful thing i ever done to my mom. If not by her patience towards me, i'll not have the chance to live a beautiful life just like what i have now. Thank you mom. I will keep pray for you and please watch me from above.

So dear readers, no matter how hard and difficult life you have and no matter how bad peoples and surround treated you never ever do a stupid things to end your own life. Cakap biar BERLAPIK, berfikir and bertindaklah secara rasional.

p/s : May your soul rest in peace mom. Always miss you.